The suspense is killing me. It's CD28 and I still don't have
any spotting. Normally by this time I do, thanks to Duphaston. I had vivid
dreams for 3 days now but aside from that I don't feel any symptoms. My
temperature is back to normal even the pressure on my right side ovary is gone.
This sucks, if I'm pregnant I should be feeling a lot of symptoms by now. Pero
baka naman wala talaga akong symptoms pero pregnant pala ako. Ang sarap isipin.
If only this waiting game is a book or a movie, I could jump from one chapter
to the next or I can press fast forward. But this is real life and I have to
wait just like everybody else.
I should be concentrating on thinking about the small
business I'd like to put up. My husband is actually nagging me about it but I
just shrugged him off. I can't concentrate, all I did for the past 2 days is to
look for a church and restaurant for our future baby's christening. I must be
going out of my mind.
I like this better though, the anticipation. It's better than
disappointment or misery. At least at this stage there's still hope, I haven't
tested yet but it makes me look forward to Cd31. Throughout this experience, it
made me trust God even more. I know he loves me and there's always a reason why
this things are happening. I should learn to trust and let go and lift
everything to him.
I will wait for March 3 before I test, my OB says so and
well I don't think I can bare another negative PT. I should be patient, maybe
this time I'll be rewarded.
